It was 2014. I was living in Melbourne. 

It was a cold spring night, and I was looking up the moon from the doorway of my house. It was my first time to see a total lunar eclipse.

The moon was going wane. Well, at least it looked so to my eyes. Honestly, I couldn’t tell if it was really changing its shape or staying the same. But apparently it seemed to be getting sinner little by little. 

I was thinking, where I would be when I see the lunar eclipse next time. Back then, I was seeing full of possibilities in my life. I was dreaming about meeting someone, getting a dream job and traveling the world. Little did I know that I will have to lose my family, break up with my lover and fail number of job interviews.

I didn’t know. I was only imagining myself being happy in the future. I thought I would be successful, beautiful and beloved. None of those dreams have come true… yet.

But everything would eventually change. Like the moon gets wax and wane. Maybe it was a wane phase of my life. I might experience another wane again. That scares me. But I know I will rise again, like the moon also rises.